Rose and Antonio

by Louise

I've been here before, in his arms. His arms surrounding me. His lips on mine. Our warmth together. And as usual, I wake up alone. I always seem to be able to smell his scent when I wake up. "Wake up and smell the roses!" That's what my ex-boyfriend told me.

In case you don't know me my name is Rose. I'm 20 years old. I'm no model and I'm not slim. I am a woman with a woman's curves. I like my body and I take care of it. I would not want to trade it for anyone's body.

A new day begins. I live in a small apartment just a few blocks from Manhattan in New York. I haven't lived here all my life though. I come from a city in the small country Denmark.

"Get up"

That's my roommate Marlena. We've been friends for several years.

Again she has stolen him from me. He is in my dreams almost twice a week these days. You know of whom I speak of. Si, José Antonio Dominguez Banderas. *Sigh*

I know he's 22 years older than me, but still I think of him every day.

The day is going by as usual, but today it's been raining. I work until 5 pm. I get home, clean a little and then cook my supper.

It's not often that Marlena is home to eat dinner. She's usually with her boyfriend. They are planning to buy their own apartment.

At least I would be alone with my dreams then. But I would have to find a smaller apartment, to have enough money.

At 9 pm she gets home.

"Hey Rose, you know that vacation we talked about?"

"Yeah?" I answer her, but I already know what she's going to say.

"I can't come with you"

"What? Why not? We've been planning that vacation for months now."

"I'm going with Robyn" She replies.

I just can't take anymore. I go to my room and slam the door hard.

*** 6 months later…

Finally I'm on the plane. This vacation is well earned.

I'm listening to the Evita soundtrack right now.

I wish we were there soon.

I close my eyes for a few seconds and suddenly I feel someone caressing my hand. Softly kissing my neck. I recall the scent of the person from one of my dreams.

"Miss?" He whispers "Miss?"

"Miss?" The stewardess shakes me a little. "Miss, we're there"

I open my eyes. The Stewardess looks at me as if I were from Mars. I wonder if I made any noises.

We're here. A beautiful city in Spain called Marbella. I've already made plans for what to do here. I want to go to Granada, Malaga and Costa Del Sol. God it's beautiful here. Again my thoughts are with the dark haired beauty. God, he's sexy…

"Welcome to your hotel, Senorita." We (the tourists) are treated as if we were royalty here. The rooms are very nice and the view is probably great but can't see it because it's dark outside. I will go to bed now and begin my 2-week holiday tomorrow.

A few days later I'm on a tour with some other people from the travel agency. We're at the Granada territory. Wow, it's amazing here. I sit and watch the view as I feel myself getting more and more sleepy.

"Excuse me, Senorita?" I know that voice but don't want to open my eyes, as I know that my dream will stop the second I do so.

"Excuse me, Senorita?" He gently awakens me. "Senorita, are you alright?" I open my eyes and look directly into his eyes. He is bowed over me wearing a cap. It's a dark blue cap. His eyes are even more beautiful in real life.

"Ehhhhm," is the only word that slips out through my lips.

Oh My God it's really him. The man I've always dreamed of. And all I can say is errrhm? How embarrassing.

"Shouldn't you be with a tour guide or something?"

I look around me and see that they're all gone.

"Hmm I was with a tour guide but I'm not anymore I guess"

He starts to laugh and his laughter instantly rubs off on me.

"So what are you going to do?" He sits down beside me.

"Well," I said "I think I'll persuade some nice guy to drive me to Marbella."

"Marbella?" He starts laughing again. "Well, I'm going to Marbella but not today"

Oh God he wouldn't.

"If you want to you are welcome to stay with me in my house until then?"

He would… My heart starts pumping. He did, he invited me.

"Err I would love to if I'm not intruding or disturbing you?"

"No, not at all. Will be nice to have some company"

Antonio and Mel broke up about a year ago. They decided together that it would be best. They both needed to be for themselves now. His girl Stella is still his girl and she is adorable.

"Is your daughter not with you?" Damn I just blew my cover.

"Stella? No, not right now. She's with her mother in Los Angeles," he answers. "You recognize me I assume?"

Duhhhhh

"Yeah I've recognized you". We start laughing again.

"Don't you just love the view here?" he asks me.

I can't take my eyes off him.

"I do. I really do love it". He laughs a little, looks down to the ground and then looks at me straight in my eyes. "I was talking about the nature chica" He smiles and then a little wink. Or was I just imagining things. No that was definitely a wink.

"Are you flirting with me?" God I can't believe I asked that question.

"What would you do if I did?" I can feel my face blush and I look to the ground.

He stands up and is ready to leave. "Are you coming?" He reaches out for my hand. The second he takes my hand and pulls me up my legs go soft and I fall directly into his arms.

"Oh, sorry" My head is almost ready to blow up and I can't look into his eyes.

I feel his hands below my chin lifting my face up to look at him.

"Don't be shy, chica" He puts his hands around my face caressing my cheek. I can feel his breath on my face and I feel as aroused as I ever did in my dreams.

"You know, since I saw you lying there I've been wanting to kiss you"

I put my hands around his waist; still I'm a bit uncertain what to do.

"Then kiss me."

"Later baby, lets go home"

"By the way, where is home? I don't recall you having a house in Granada?"

He puts his hands in mine and leads me along a little trail. We walk for about 10 minutes when we come to a parking space where I recognize his Harley. It's a Screaming Eagle. It's one of his favourites. The colour is silver and black. It's a real beauty. He hands me his helmet. "Hop on chica"

"But I've never ridden on a Motorcycle before."

"Just follow my movements, okay?"

"That's easy for you to say," I think to myself.

We jump on the bike and he places my arms around his waist again. We sit really close and just sitting so close to him makes me tremble.

We drive for about 30-45 min. And I swear I've never held anyone that tight ever. It was as if I could sit there forever.

But when we got to the house I was glad, because it made my butt a little sore.

"Does your ass ache?" he starts laughing when he see me rubbing it a little. "Here let me help you"

He starts walking toward me. He is standing behind me and places both his hands on my ass. He begins to caress every curve of my buttocks. The tension between us grows and he starts to nipple on my neck…he leads his hands to my thighs and starts caressing them.

"Not yet, chica." But I can hear on the way he breathes that I am not the only one who is excited. He wants to continue. I push my ass back and feel the lump inside his pants, urging to get out. His breathing instantly goes deeper. He's no longer moving his hands. Only pushing my waist closer to him. I can hear him moan a little in my ear.

"No, no not yet, not here" He push me a little away from him. I turn around and look at him. My God, he's blushing. I couldn't help smiling. There he is, this world's most beautiful man, and I made him blush. I giggle lightly to myself.

He takes me in his arms and squeezes me, but as soon as he hears me giggle he pushes me away from him and look at me.

"What are you laughing at?" He starts smiling too.

"Nothing"

"Lets go inside. I want to be alone with you."

He takes my hand and leads me inside.

Wow this house is amazing, but then again it is His house.

"Would you like something to drink? Jodder, we didn't even introduce ourselves." He reaches out his hand "As you probably know my name is Antonio"

I take his hand but don't shake it

"My name is Rose"

"Rose? That is a beautiful name for a beautiful girl no?" he winks to me again. I love it when he does that.

"Well I would like a cola if you've got one?"

"Of course I do, but must admit that I was thinking about red wine or champagne it works better for the act of, err, how to put it, pleasure?"

He pulls me nearer still holding my hand and finally he kisses me.

At first it was so gentle. Kissing my lips. Then his tongue broke free and into my mouth. Our breaths instantly change everything. His kiss is demanding now, making me loose my breath. He presses me hard against him.

"Surprise" Suddenly Melanie jumps out from corner "Missed me Anto…"

"Melanie?" He let go of me instantly letting me almost drop to the ground. "Wha… what are you doing here?"

"I just decided that I would leave Stella with my parents and then come visit you, though it seems that you may already have company?"

"Oh this?" He pointed at me "This is just a tourist who got lost in the hills"

"Then why were you hugging her?"

"Well she was a bit scared and I just wanted to comfort her"

When he was done with that sentence he looked at me quickly as he realised what a mistake he had just done.

"Rose, I didn't mean to…"

"Forget it, it's alright. I can find my own way back, but thanks anyway, Mr. Banderas".

I rushed out of the house with tears in my eyes. How could he be so cold? We had both felt the warmth from each other, the attraction between us. I can just imagine him trying to solve things with Mel right now. I can't believe I had fallen for that crap. But then again why shouldn't I? He doesn't have the rumour of being a creep. No he is the kindest man I have ever heard of. Oh well, I guess I'll just walk back or ask anyone if there's a bus or something to Marbella.

Lucky for me a car came by asking me if he could give me a ride into town where there would be a train that would go to Marbella. Of course I accepted. I just wanted to get out of there.

In the train on my way back I recalled our kiss over and over again. It was pure torment to me. Why had he said that to her? Was he ashamed of being attracted to a younger girl? I fell asleep on the train when the train conductor woke me up. "Senorita, we are in Marbella now"

"Gracias," I answered him and got out of the train.

Finally back at my hotel. I get into my room and a BIG bouquet of roses is on my table. Oh my God, he knows which hotel I'm staying at. I rush over to the table, no; it was not from him but from the Travel agency who apologised for letting stay out there all alone. There was a card too.

Dear Ms. Rose,

On behalf of your travel agency we would like to give you our sincere apology. We would like to invite you to a special dinner with a special friend of ours. If you want to you can invite one of your friends to join you.

If you have any questions feel free to call me on the number at the bottom of this letter. Evening gown is preferred as it will be a very exclusive dinner.

Kind regards

Tom Shatter US Travels.

Hmm sure why not, I'll go. Now I have to find a really nice dress. But first I really need a good nights sleep. Hmm, I wonder where that dinner is sup… what if it's at his place? I don't think I can bear looking at him right now. I think I'll call that Tom Shatter.

"Yes hello Mr. Shatter? This is Rose? Yeah, I accept your apology don't worry about it. I have a question for you though. Who is that dinner at? Yeah? Who? Antonio Banderas? I'm afraid I'll have to say no thanks to the dinner. I already have plans. But thanks anyway, I really appreciate it. Yeah I hope the rest of my vaca…sorry what? Oh you really don't have to. Well then I'll accept the money instead. Thank you for that. We'll probably talk later. I will go to bed now. It's been a long day. Take care too. Okay, bye."

God it was at his place and now I said no. God what have I done.

I threw myself on the bed hugging a pillow real tight.

"Querida Rose. I didn't mean to hurt you," he's whispering to me in my dreams. "I just didn't know what to say. Please forgive me" His brown eyes are looking directly into mine. "I need you, Rose" I see tears in his eyes now. "I need you"

"Good morning," it's the maid. "Did you sleep well senorita? It's a brand new day. Why not go swim in the pool? It is going to be a hot day today"

I didn't order a wake up call. I stretch.

"I bet your wondering what I'm doing here but your travel agency told me to bring you breakfast today. So have a nice day, Senorita"

I guess I'll just eat my breakfast right now, I guess I will go to the pool after lunch. Too hot there before lunch and also too many people. I must say that the breakfast they've bought me is excellent. There's fruit and pancakes and something I don't quite know what is. I laugh a little to myself.

"You don't like your breakfast?"

I jump up from the chair and try to find out who said that. I know that voice. And there in a dark corner at the end of my bed is Antonio.

"How did you find me? How dare you walk into my room like this? I haven't even invited you. Du er fandeme for meget"

"What was that last thing?" He starts laughing. Again I'm having a real hard time not to laugh but I succeed.

"What are you doing here, Antonio?" I sit down in my chair again. "How did you get in? Who let you in?"

"So many questions no? Why bother thinking about that?" He's being a bit too slick for me to handle right now.

"Get out. NOW"

He looks at me as if the heavens just fell into hell. "What?"

"I said, Get out. Pronto"

"No, no, querida Rose, Don't throw me out. I only came to apologize to you.

I get up from the chair and start walking towards him. "Do you have any idea how mad you made me? How much you hurt me? How humiliating it was for me? I don't want you here right now. Please leave"

"Fine, I'll leave. But I'm really sad that you wont come to my dinner."

"Will Mel be there?" I ask him

"Err, well, err."

"I take that as a yes. Read my lips Antonio. NO"

"Come on, Rose. I really need you there." He gets up from the chair. "I'm really sorry for what I did, and I know there's nothing I can do to make you forgive me. And if you will not forgive me I guess I'll just leave your wallet here and leave. You dropped it on your way out yesterday." He is standing real close to me now "Can I at least explain what happened last night?"

He takes my hands in his. Again I feel the very touch of him arousing me. I try to pull my hands away but he is holding on tight. "Please don't be mad, Rose." He lifts my face up to look at him. His eyes are shiny as if he is on the verge of crying. He caresses my cheek with his thumb, and I can't help closing my eyes of enjoyment. How I've missed his touch. Now he places his other hand on my back pulling me closer to him. "I missed you, baby. I missed you so much"

I can't help it and I can't fight it. I want him so much and I want him now. He unties my robe and let it fall to the ground. I am only wearing underwear beneath it. I'm trembling from his touch on my skin. He looks up and into my eyes for the permission to take more off. He doesn't need it but to make sure he knows I place his hand on my breast and look deep into his eyes.

"I need you, Rose. I need you so much," he whispered. In that second a tear fell from his eye and landed on his arm.

"Baby, I'm here" I wiped away the tear and kissed his lips.

Suddenly he breaks down in front of me. Gets down on his knees, holding my stomach close to his head and holds me tight.

"I thought I had lost you, Rose."

It touches me to see this strong man on his knees practically begging for a girl to come back to him. To be with him.

"Don't leave me, please, when you left us yesterday, left through the door I just felt so lonely. I've never felt this way before. I have passion for you but also feelings. As if I want to be with a friend. A real close friend."

I know exactly what he means. In a way I feel almost too close to him to be with him and on the other hand I want him too much to stop this here.

I get down on my knees to him. Take his head in my hands and caress his face.

"Don't cry sweetie. I know exactly how you feel." He closes his eyes enjoying every caress I give him. He puts his hands around me, finds the border of my top and starts to lift it up over my head. I let him do it.

"You are so beautiful." He slowly lets his fingers touch every curve of my breasts, touch my (already hard) nipples, puts my breasts in his hands and touches them as if he's never touched a woman before.

I start to unbutton his shirt and take it off him. I let my fingers slip through the curls on his chest, feel his every being with me. I want to be close to him and so does he. He wraps his arms around me and presses me hard against his chest. This feeling, skin to skin is makes us hunger for each other even more.

Slowly I put my hands outside his pants and I feel his lump even more now. I press it lightly and instantly feel his erection getting harder. He really wants me, and he wants me a lot.

He starts to fumble with my panties like he can't get them off quick enough.

"Relax Antonio. I'm not going anywhere today"

"I know I know I just want to feel the tenderness inside you."

"You will, baby. Trust me. You can feel me as much as you want."

This only made him even hotter.

"Ay Cariña, I need you now"

I unbutton his pants and pull them to his knees. "Please stand up baby, I want to take off your pants"

He stands up and his crouch is right in front of me. I can also see his hard erection through his underwear. First I take off his pants and then his underwear. His erected penis is ready for my attack.

At first I slowly touch it with my fingers. Watching his face while I do so. His breath is getting slower and more concentrated now. He can barely stand. I smile to myself. He is so beautiful. I put his penis in my mouth. In the beginning I'm only sucking on the head. Licking it tenderly, making sure he feels everything I do to him.

"Please let me lie down, baby." His face is unbelievable. Looks like he just made it to heaven.

"Of course you can lie down." I can't help smiling

He goes to the bed and lies down, and the second he does so I can see that he is 100% relaxed. I get up on the bed and sit on his legs and continue my quest. I take it in my mouth again and start sucking on it. The taste of him fills my mouth and all I want is more. I grab it while I suck it. He starts moaning. It's only a gentle whisper but it's there "Si, si, querida. Si."

I continue a little and then I stop. He looks at me sitting on his legs and nods his head. He wants me there with him. I crawl closer to him, and when I get to his head he grabs my head and kisses me. He's sucking on my tongue, biting and licking my lips.

"Get on your back please."

"Why?" I tease him. I lower myself so that the tip of his penis just barely touches my panties.

"Why? Because if you don't I will…"

He surprises me and grabs me. We both laugh. He turns me on my back and now he is on top.

"Because I want to taste you too Rose."

He's lowering himself to my neck licking and kissing it. He's now at my breasts and he is sucking on my hard nipples. He squeezes them gently and licks them. God I want him in me. He's gently caressing every curve of my body.

He starts taking off my panties. And when they're off he slowly lets his fingers slip through my pubic hair. He spreads my legs and get in between them. But now it's his turn to tease me.

He gently blows air on me and is just barely touching me with his fingertip. I spread my legs even more. I can feel my body aching for him.

"Mmmm, I love to hear you moan baby, please don't stop."

He starts licking and soon his face is buried in me. He's sucking on my "lips", sticking in his tongue licking and kissing. I can feel the orgasm pressing now.

"Come on baby, come" and that does it. I feel as if there is an explosion inside me. I sense things 10 times as much and I almost scream out in pure pleasure… I lie there catching my breath as he climbs on me.

"Are you ready?" He wants to make sure I'm fine.

"You can ask me the real question, baby." I smile

"Okay. Are you alright?" Can't believe he's actually asking me that.

"Mmmm I never felt better."

Slowly he slides up in me. I can feel him filling my every being. At first he doesn't move. We're just lying there. Looking each other in the eyes. Then slowly he begins to move back and forth. The feeling is extraordinary. I grab his buttocks real hard, begging him to go deeper and go faster. And so he does. He's on his arms just moving back and forth with his lower parts. He's beginning to moan out loud "Jodderme bebe". I grab the bed rack and hold on tight. I wrap my legs around him pushing him against me. We're both moaning real loud now. And begin to sweat as well. And he just keeps on going and I get one orgasm after another almost fainting sometimes.

He comes deep inside me and at that exact time I get a big orgasm.

Oh his face is amazing (when I'm able to open my eyes).

His body is resting on mine and he's almost out of breath.

It's noon now and that doesn't make it chillier. We are sweating together. He's looking deep into my eyes as if he is saying "thank you" to me. And then he lays his head on my chest holding me real tight.

We both fall asleep that way. Tired and exhausted.

I wake up around 6PM.

"Mmmm, hey sweetie" But where Antonio were supposed to be there is only… my pillow. Oooh a dream again. But it had been so real. I could almost still taste him in my mouth. God this is embarrassing. I bury my head in the pillow.

"Buenas noches, baby." I feel a gentle nibbling on my but. It wasn't a dream. I smile to myself happy I hadn't begun to crying or something like that.

"Mmmm Buenas noches." I get on my back and see his beautiful face again. "How did you sleep sweetie?"

"As good as I ever had, Rose. Which reminds me, a rose for a Rose." He hands me a deep red rose.

"Thank you very much Antonio" It smells unbelievable.

"I just went to go get some food" He's totally naked.

"Like that?"

"Well I called from your phone and ordered some dinner." We both start laughing.

He lies down beside me. "Rose, I want to thank you for this morning. It was amazing."

I smile at him, "surely you have tried being with Mel like this. I don't consider myself to be an expert at lovemaking." We laugh again. I love to hear that laugh. "No, not that kind. I feel as if the trust between us is as if we've known each other for centuries. I mean, surely you must feel the same way that I do. It's not that…" I smile at him

"Don't worry Antonio. I know that what we did last night was something between friends. I now know that I don't love you as a lover but as a friend, and I know you feel the same way about me. Right?"

"Yes that's true. I know, that I can trust you, and I know that you know that you can trust me…is that right?" He starts laughing.

"Yes that is right…I know that, yes. And I think that's what made this morning so special. Don't worry, we will remain friends. Really close friend." Hahaha.

Now we've spent 2 weeks together in Marbella, Malaga and Costa Del Sol. Mostly in the bed but in the bed together. It's time for me to go home to New York.

We are at the hotel. He can't come with me to the airport. We are kissing each other and both crying a little.

"Don't worry, chica. We will stay in touch. I have you address and number and you have mine. We are still friends remember?"

"I will always remember Antonio"

The bus from the travel agency was there now. It was time to say goodbye.

"Let's get this over with alright?" I can't help crying.

"Don't cry, querida." He kisses me. "Now go, Rose."

"Adios, Antonio."

"Adios, Rose."

***

I am sitting in my apartment in New York. It's raining, so it fits perfectly to my mood. I miss him. It's amazing how close we became in those 2 weeks.

***

3 months later.

I've been emailing with my buddy since I came home from Spain. We've been talking on the phone as well. It's always nice to hear his voice.

I'm on my way home from work. God I'm so tired. It's been a really long day. I'm walking up the stairs to my apartment and I begin to find my keys. I look up and a red rose is lying on my doorstep. It's couldn't be. My door is unlocked. There he is, my friend, my lover and my soul mate. Trying to cook dinner for me. Hahaha looks funny.

"Hola, Antonio."

"Hola, Rose."

I close the door behind me.

I stand a little by the door, looking at him. When I first met him in Granada he had hair to his ears. Just like around Zorro. But now a while after his hair has grown longer and curlier. He's wearing a pair of dark brown pants and a shirt with long neck. He's looking gorgeous as always. I've really missed him.

"Cariña?" he walks toward me. I guess I was a little lost just now.

"Yeah?"

"Where did you go?"

"Nowhere sweetie. I am here. Just hard to realize that you are here in my apartment."

"Well I am here, in your apartment. But it's best that you don't know how I got in" He starts laughing. God, I missed his laugh.

I practically run into his arms. "I missed you so much, baby." I can feel the tears in my eyes.

"Ay Cariña, I really missed you too." I can hear his voice shivering.

We stand there holding each other for quite some time. When we smell something burning.

"Jodder" He runs to the pots and pans. "Well Cariña, I hope you're good at cooking because this is… well burned." We both laugh out loud.

"Sit down, baby. I'll cook us some dinner." I lead him to the dinner table and he sits down. As I'm just about to walk away from the table he takes my hand and pulls me down to him. As his soft lips touches mine, our breaths get heavy and passionate and again I recall the hot romance we had in Spain.

Many times when we were on the phone we've talked about what we'd like to do to each other if we were together. When he was at the set of a movie or just at his home in Los Angeles. But this time, the moment he kissed me I feel doubt in my head and in my heart as well. I can't let my feelings for him take over. I don't want to lose him.

"What's wrong Rose?" I guess he could feel that I was thinking of something.

"Nothing, sweetie, everything is just fine" I try to smile at him.

"So those tears in your eyes mean what? Nothing?"

"It's just the tears of joy, Toni." I smile at him again and wipe away the tears in my eyes.

He must never know how I feel for him. Things would get out of hands and we both know we can't let that happen. We'd rather break contact than be together. Why? Well, because of many things. I'm much younger than he and the world would not understand our relationship. Besides he doesn't love me. Not in that way, anyway.

"Please, Rose, what is the matter?" I try to lead the conversation somewhere else.

"So, what have you done with Stella?" I try cleaning the pots and pans in which the food was burned. What a mess. "My God, what have you done here?" I try to make him laugh but he just looks at me worried.

"Come here." He leads me to the table. "Sit down and tell me please."

I break down in tears and he holds me close.

"It's just…."

"I know, but we can't. I can't. You understand that, don't you?"

"Of course I do." I look up and into his eyes. "I do but…"

"But you love me, don't you? Not as a friend but…" he stands up and looks at me worriedly. "I am sorry, carina, then I can not stay. I will not let this happen. I can't let this happen. I am so sorry, Rose."

He takes his jacket and walks right out of the door.

How…oh god no. He walked away. Now I know for sure that he does not love me. I fall to the floor on my knees crying my eyes out. He left me.

I go to my bed. Lie on my back and holds my hands to my face. "Come back to me, baby." I cry out for him. "Don't leave me" But he has. He has left me. And he's not coming back.

I don't know when I fell asleep but I wake up next day around noon. I check and see I have three messages on my answering machine.

"Where are you? You should have been to work today ages ago." The three calls are from my boss. What an asshole. But I call him anyway.

"Where are you Rose?"

"In my bed…I don't feel so well. I'm really sorry that I haven't called but I've been sleeping until now."

"Really? Are you alright?" Wow, this surprises me.

"Yeah, I'm fine."

"You want me to stop by with some chicken soup" Why are Americans so crazy about chicken soup?

"Yeah sure. Why not. Thanks boss"

"See you in a few hours, OK?"

"Okay. Bye bye."

"Bye, Rose."

I go back to my bed. And a few hours later there's knocking on my door. He just walks into my apartment. I guess I didn't lock it after…

"Hey Rose, are you here?"

"Yeah I'm coming out to you now."

There's my boss. We've never really been really good pals or anything. He's a guy in his mid-twenties. He's got long dark brown hair. Dark eyes, but is not of any other origin. He's got a nice body, but some attitude sometimes. His name is Tom.

"Hey how are you?"

"I'm alright, thank you."

"Here's your soup. God, you look tired."

"Well, that's because I am tired." He's a bit annoying right now.

"Listen, Rose. Is there anything you would like to talk to someone about? I mean, it just seems that you may have a little heartache or something. Did you skip work today because of some personal problem? It's quite alright if that's the case."

"Tom, I… well I guess I might as well just tell you. I'm in love with this guy and… and yesterday he told me that he didn't want to be with me. And I just…." I feel the tears in my eyes again. "I just can't…" I start to cry. I can't take it anymore. I walk to him and he takes me in his arms. He's holding me real tight.

It's nice that someone is comforting me. I missed it a lot, someone's arms around me. But it's not the man I love. It's my Boss.

I feel his hands on my arms. Holding them tight and he pushes me away from him.

"You know what? You are so pretty." He lifts my head with the one hand while the other is still holding my arms. Tight, and it's beginning to hurt me.

"What are you doing?" He starts pushing me backwards. To the bedroom. "No, let me go Tom." In that second he hits me so hard I fall to the ground. I feel my lips aching and taste the blood.

"No, please don't."

"Stop crying, girl. If you don't fight, it won't hurt." He picks me up from the floor and pushes me back again.

Suddenly someone knocks on my door.

"Don't say a word Rose" He holds his hand on my mouth. But hell no, I bite his hand and he screams out and pull his hand back.

"HELP!" I scream as loud as I can.

"Rose?"

Oh God it's Toni…

"Toni, HELP!"

No more than 2 second goes by before the entire door gets knocked in and there he is.

"Help me, please"

"You get the fuck away from her you fucking bastard." I can see the anger in his eyes but also fear.

In three steps he's where we stand and pushes Tom away from me.

"Hey relax, pal, hey your Antonio Banderas." He's trying to talk his way around it.

"What the fuck do you think you're doing?" He keeps pushing him backwards until he gets to a wall.

"Hey, calm down, OK? It's was a mistake."

"Your damn right it was a mistake. It was a mistake to mess with someone I care for. You poco Jodder."

He hits him in the face and I hear the unmistakeable sound of something breaking. I know he hit him hard.

"Call the cops, Rose." He turns and looks at me. Now he sees the blood on my lip. Again I see the anger in his eyes. "What have you done to her?" Again he hits him but this time in the stomach. Tom drops to the floor.

I walk to the phone and the cops are on their way. After I hang up, Antonio walks up to me. He takes my hand and leads me to the table. He makes me sit down and go to the sink. Moistens a towel and comes back to the table. He sits down beside me and puts the wet towel on my lips.

"Querida. I am sorry I couldn't get here earlier." I see tears in his eyes.

My body begins to tremble and the fear I didn't feel earlier overwhelms me.

"Anto…" I can say no more.

Tears are falling down my face and my entire body is trembling. He takes me in his arms. Holds me tight and together we drop to our knees on the floor. My face is in his chest and I'm just cuddling against him. Hiding myself in his arms. His body begins to tremble as well. He is crying.

"If anything ever happens to you Rose, I don't know what I would do. I am so sorry for leaving you" His voice is shaky and it is difficult for him to speak.

I raise my head to look at him and find tears falling down his face.

"Don't worry Toni, I'm okay. Please don't cry, I'm fine." Now it's his turn to curl up against me. I hold him tight. Trying to make him feel the same comfort and the safety I feel when he holds me. I speak sweet words to him, trying to make him relax.

A knock on the door. "Police, please open the door." Antonio stands up. Sweeps away the tears in his eyes and walk to the door, opens it and briefly informs the police what has happened.

They drag Tom away as Antonio gives a statement. They decide that they will talk to me the next day.

He picks me up from the floor and carries me to the bedroom. We lie down on the bed, just looking in each other's eyes. I've missed him so much. And now I've gotten the proof that he loves me too. Even though he can never tell me.

Next morning I wake up in the bed alone. I wonder where he is when I smell the sweet scent of coffee and fresh bread. I close my eyes again, trying to recall what has happened these last few days. Actually I don't want to think about it. I hear the door opening and someone sneaking in the bed beside me. I can't help smiling.

"Are you awake, querida?" His hand is gently brushing my face. "I can tell by that smile on your face that you are". He starts laughing and gently starts kissing my face. When he gets to my lips I can feel it hurting a little and moan. I open my eyes and look into a pair of worried eyes.

"Are you alright, sweetie?" He's clearly worried for me.

"Yes baby. I'm fine. It just hurts a little, that's all. Don't worry." I smile at him.

"When I look into your eyes it's like something's missing. What is it?"

"Well remember what you told me the last time you were here? You…you left after I told you that I love you. That hurts, and it hurts a lot."

"I know I know. But what do you want me to do?" He turns and lies on his back looking up on the ceiling. "I wish you could understand why I can't tell you that…"

"What, tell me that you love me too? Why not?" I sit up in the bed looking down at him. "Why not?" I gently stroke his face. Lead my thumb to touch his lower lip, brushing it. I miss kissing him. "Why can't you tell me…when I know that you do?"

"Because I…I can't do that." He also sits up in the bed and takes my hand in his. "It's too complicated, can't you see? It would…" I silence him with a kiss.

I feel his hands touching my face and I wrap my arms around him. He gently pushes me down and I can feel I'm getting the chills from just thinking of us together again. He lies down beside me and caresses and kissing my face. Just looking at me. Stroking my eyes and my lips. I close my eyes. I feel his hand on my stomach and slowly pulls up my top. And feel his hand on my breast, cupping it, stroking it and gently squeezing my nipples, but they are already hard. He's slowly opening my pyjamas pants, pulling the cord keeping them closed. He puts his hand into the warmth and strokes me outside my panties.

"Please, do something about it," I beg him and spread my legs.

"Hmm you sure, carina?" He laughs a little.

Then I feel him moving around my panties and slowly bury one of his fingers in me.

"Si, I am sure", I moan to him, and I spread my legs more. "Okay" and pulls out the finger and just looks me. He laughs and turns on his back again.

"Fine, if you want it that way" I move quickly and sit with one leg on each side of him. "You want it the hard way?" I pull his shirt over his head and quickly open his pants and pull them down to his ankles. He tries to sit up but I just push him back into the bed. "No no no no, you just lie there," I start laughing. He puts his hands under his head and look at me.

"Do you have any idea how beautiful you are" He's smiling at me, which can only be the smile of appreciation. I can feel that I am blushing. "Why are you blushing? We've been together before."

"Si, I know, but not like this" I slowly pull my top over my head and the second it covers my head I feel his hands on my body pulling me closer to him.

"No no no no, lie still please" I can't help laughing and it complicates my mission to pull my top off. In a quick move he is lying between my legs and I can't see a thing because of the top. He keeps his hands on my arms so that I can't move.

I can feel the bump in his underwear growing. He slowly pushes his waist toward mine and I feel his breath on my throat. I wrap my legs around him, and with ever thrust toward me I pull him closer.

His breathing is becoming heavier. This feeling is so sexy. He let go of my arms and pull of my top. He grabs me and suddenly we're sitting up. Still my legs are wrapped around him and we're sitting as close as possible. His hands are stroking my back and we are just looking at each other but can't feel the heat between us growing.

"Please baby, lie down. This was supposed to be me against you and not vice-versa." We start laughing again.

"Okokok, but just sit there for two seconds please." He stands up and pulls off his pants completely. Now he is just standing in his underwear. "Please come here on the edge and sit" He bents down and lean on his arms on the bed. "Come here" God, he's sexy. I move to the edge of the bed and sit with my legs over the edge.

Slowly he pulls down his underwear and stand now completely naked in front of me. There is no doubt where on his body my attention is. His penis is already really hard and erect and right in front of me. I can't help licking my lips.

"No, stand up please."

"What? No you just stand still sweetie." I laugh a little but when I look up at him he is still serious. "Please stand up.

" I stand up and he pulls off my pyjama pants and my panties. His fingers slip through my pubic hair and he kisses me gently on the lips.

"Follow me." He then turns around and walk out from the room. I follow him a little while after looking at that well shaped ass of his. "Come on chica" I guess he can hear that I am not following.

"I'm coming, I'm coming"

We end up in the bathroom where he turns on the shower. Then he turns around again and leans against the wall. "Are you ready to have a little fun?" He has a really funny smile on his face but God he's looking so sexy. He has such a great body and…

"Baby, have you lost some weight?"

"You noticed," He laughs quietly.

"Si, but please don't lose anymore weight alright?"

"And that goes for you too, carina. You know I like your body just the way it is."

He starts walking toward me then takes my hand and leads me into the shower with him. The water is running down our bodies. He reaches for the soap and then turns me around so that my face is toward the wall and he puts my hands on the shower wall. His hands are slowly washing my entire body from feet to neck. Still it's on my backside.

When he's about to wash my stomach he wraps his arms around me and leans really close to me. I can feel his penis between my legs and squeeze a little. I can hear him moan a little. He walks away from me and turns me around.

"You want this," he says and points down on his penis. He laughs a little again. I think he enjoys torturing me.

"Si, I want it." I smile at him and then push him against the wall. He puts his hands on his head and closes his eyes.

I let my hands run all the way down his body and touch every inch of him like the first time we were together. I take his penis in my hands and start touching. At first just slowly letting it caress and stroke it. I can feel him getting harder under my touch and I he is clearly enjoying it. I can tell by the look on his face. He starts to moan, at first very silently but then slowly growing in strength.

"Please, Cariña. Please do something about it."

"Are you sure?" and give him a hard thrust

"Si," he cries out and in that second I let go and just stand looking on him.

"Fine."

"Oh no you don't." He grabs me under my butt and lifts me up. I wrap my legs around him and he disappears inside me. He quickly shuts down the shower and carries me to the bed. He slowly lowers us to the bed and as my back is on the bed he gives me a deep and slow thrust. He leans his head backwards as he goes deeper and deeper. I can feel him every time he joins us together. Then he lean his head on my shoulder and again puts his hands under my but and pushes me closer to him with every thrust me gives me. It's getting harder and harder. I scratch his back from joy. Then in one hard and deep thrust we join together in orgasm. I can feel him come deep inside of me and I gently bite his shoulder.

We collapse on the bed with him on top of me and with my legs wrapped around him. We just lie there holding each other.

Then I hear his sweet voice "I love you, querida."

I feel the tears in my eyes.

"I love you too, baby," I say with a trembling voice.