Uncontrolled Desire

By Denise

It was 12:30 when we finally arrived at the clinic, after stopping for lunch. He pulled around on the backside of the building. "Why are we parking back here?"

"I prefer parking back here, it is closer to my office." He got out came around and opened my door. "Besides we need to be careful, less people will see us together."

"You don't want anyone to know we are dating?" I smiled as I touched his face.

"Yes." He opened the door to the clinic and I went in. We walked down the hall to the meeting room, opened the door went in and closed the door. "I could get into a lot of trouble if someone found out I have crossed that line with you."

"Oh."

"I have to make some rules."

"Like what?"

"We have to be professionals while we are here, okay."

"Yes, I understand."

"Good. Now I want you to run up to my office and get the file for today. It's in my top drawer of my desk." He handed me his key. "The file will have the name Juan on the top of it."

"Okay." I left the room and went upstairs to his office. Katie wasn't at her desk when I came in and went through to Dr. Leal's office. I started to unlock the door when I heard a voice.

"You can't go in there." I turned around and it was Katie.

"Why can't I?"

"You shouldn't be in there when Dr. Leal isn't around," she insisted.

"He asked me to come up here to get a file from his desk, okay?"

"Where is he?"

"He is downstairs in the meeting room."

"Why didn't he come up here himself?"

"I don't know! He must trust me since he gave me his key so I could get in. All right!" I held the key to her face.

"You don't have to be so sassy with me, young lady!" Then she stormed off.

"What a bitch!" I said as I opened the door. I went over to his desk opened the top drawer and found the folder with Juan written on top. I left the office and hurried back downstairs. I walked in and there was a young man talking to Dr. Leal.

They both looked up and then stood up to greet me. Dr. Leal made the introductions.

"Hello Juan," I smiled.

"Hello, Miss Anderson." He reached out to shake my hand.

"How are you today?"

"Good," Juan said as he sat down on the sofa.

I sat down and looked over the file. "Shall we get started?"

"Yes, I am ready."

"So, Juan. What are you here for?"

"I have been having sex with my sister." He looked at me then looked away.

I could see the torture in his eyes. "Why would you do that?" I was in shocked as I glanced over at Dr. Leal.

"It all started when we were kids and it still happens today."

"When was the last time you had sex with her?"

He thought for a moment. "It has been about 6 mouths ago."

"How do you feel about it?"

"I hate it!" he cried as he pounded the arm of the sofa with his fist.

"So, why do you do it?"

He looked at me. "The sex is incredible!" Then he looked away with mixed emotions in his eyes.

"Then why do you get so upset?"

"I get embarrassed and ashamed when I talk about it."

"Do you have a girlfriend?"

"I did, but I fucked that up. She was so sweet and would have done anything for me."

"So, where is your sister now?"

"I'm not sure."

"Where you abused as children?"

"Yes, she was." He had tears in his eyes. "I never wanted to admit it."

"That she was abused?"

"Yes, my father sexually abused her."

I had tears in my eyes as I looked over at Dr. Leal and our eyes met. He looked down at his watch and said. "It looks like we are out of time for today. Will you come back next week?"

"Yes I will be back," Juan stood up. "I want to thank you for listening."

"You are welcome." I stood up and walked Juan to the door. "That is what we are here for." Juan opened the door and left, as I closed the door and stood against it thinking. "Can you imagine having sex with your sister?" I slowly walked back to my chair and sat down again.

"No, but it happens all the time."

"Yes I suppose it does." I opened the folder and put the files away.

"So, how was your first week?"

"Personally or professionally?" I smiled.

"What do you think?"

"I know I had a difficult time on Tuesday, but I seemed to have made it through the rest of the week without any problems."

"Well, I think you did an incredible job."

"Thanks." I blushed as I looked away from those intense dark eyes. "So now what?"

"Do you have any plans tonight?"

"No. Why?"

"A friend stopped by and asked if I wanted to out to dinner with he and his girlfriend."

"Someone who works here?"

"Yes."

"I thought we couldn't date?"

"No, but we can go out as friends."

"Sure, I would love to."

"Great. Let's take these things back to my office and then we can leave."

We left the room and walked upstairs. As Francisco was about to unlock his office door when another doctor came through the door from the reception area.

"Hey Francisco. I'm leaving for the day, so I need to know if we can get together tonight?"

"Hello, Dave. I want you to meet Jessica, my student."

"Hello, Jessica. I am Dr. David Owen." He reached out to shake my hand. "It's good to meet you."

I looked up at him, he had light brown hair with blue eyes and he was slightly taller then Francisco. "Yes, same here."

"So, how about it?" He looked at Francisco and then looked at me. "You can come too, Jessica."

"I have already invited her to come," Francisco spoke up.

"Good. We'll have a great time tonight."

"What time should we meet you?"

"Let's meet about 7 p.m., if that is good for you."

"Yes that would be fine."

"I will see you later."

Francisco opened the door to his office and I went in and sat down. "He works here in this office with you"

"Yes, he does."

"So that means I met Dr. Stevens yesterday."

"Dr. Gary Stevens is my boss."

"I need to go home and change for tonight. What time will you pick me up?"

"I will come pick you up around 6, if that is okay."

"That would be fine." I stood up and walked towards the door. I started to reach for the doorknob when he came up behind me.

"Wait." He touched my shoulder and turned me around. "Oh Jessica!" He groaned as he captured my mouth holding me tight against his body.

"Where can we go?" I moaned as he kissed my neck. "I thought we couldn't do this here?"

He looked into my eyes, "I can break my own rules." As he reached around me to lock the door then led me over to the small sofa by the window. I took off his shirt and pants, as he then unzipped my dress and pulled it over my head.

"Oh Francisco!" I sighed as he took control of my mouth again as our tongues played together. He laid me down on the sofa. He then got down on his knees parted my thighs and drove me crazy with his tongue, bringing me to just the point of an orgasm; he did this several times. Our bodies became one, as he entered me given me several orgasms. He covered my mouth with his trying to soften my screams. He came soon after I did and then fell into my arms. "Wow! You are incredible!"

"We will have to do something about those screams," he joked.

"I'm sorry. I have never had a boyfriend who could do that to me."

"You don't have to be sorry. I like making you scream." He smiled as he sat up and put his pants back on. "That's how I know I have done my job."

"Where did you learn to make love like that?"

"Lots of practice." He handed me my clothes. "Why don't you go home to get cleaned up and I will come get you around 6 p.m., okay?"

I stood up and pulled my dress over my head. "Will you zip the back of my dress?"

He came back over to zip up my dress and then wrapped his arms around me. "Thanks for coming into my life."

***

I was waiting outside on the steps when Francisco pulled up to the apartment building. He got out of his car and came up the sidewalk wearing a white shirt with black jeans. "'Looks like you are ready to go."

"More than ready." I replied as I stood up and we walked back to his car.

We drove to a Mexican restaurant. He got out came around to open my door and then helped out of the car. "That blue dress looks great on you."

"Thanks."

He took my arm and we walked into the restaurant. We found Dr. Owen and his girlfriend sitting at a table in the bar. "Hello, Dave and Lisa," Francisco said as we approached them.

Dave looked up. "Francisco, glad you could make it."

"Have you been here long?"

"No we just got here, our drinks haven't come yet." He looked at Francisco and then to me. "Jessica, this my girlfriend Lisa."

"Hello." I said as she smiled back.

"We have about a 20 minute wait for dinner, so sit down and we can talk." Dave said.

Francisco pulled out my chair as I sat down. He sat down next to me. The waitress came by and I ordered a strawberry daiquiri; Francisco ordered a beer.

"So Jessica, how do you like working with Dr. Leal? Is he treating you right?"

"I have had a great week, I have learned a lot." I looked at Francisco and smiled. " He's a great teacher."

"Jessica has done an amazing job," Francisco said reached over and touched my arm. "I am proud of her."

"Well that is great to hear," Dave smiled.

"So, how was your vacation?" Francisco asked.

"We had a wonderful time!" Lisa responded.

"Were did you go?" I asked.

"We went to the Bahamas," Dave answered.

"It was incredible!" Lisa added.

"I would love to go." I looked at Francisco as our eyes met.

"Francisco, you have vacation time coming up don't you?" Dave asked.

Francisco looked at Dave again. "Yes. I was planning to take vacation the week after next."

"Were you going anywhere?" Dave asked.

"I'm not sure if I'm going to take it or not." He looked at me again.

"Why?" Dave asked.

"Yes, why?" I asked.

"While I am working with Jessica, I can't leave."

"I'll gladly help you out."

"Oh, no, that's okay." He smiled at me.

Our name was finally announced so we picked up our things and went into the dining area. We all ordered dinner and then sat around talking. Lisa and I got to sit across from each other so we could talk.

"How long have you known Francisco?" Lisa asked.

"I just met him on Monday."

"So, you are a student?"

"Yes."

"You are studying to be a psychologist?"

"Yes. I go to Metro State Collage here in Denver."

"Did you grow up here?"

"Yes, I was born here. And you?"

"I have lived here for about 10 years, I grew up in Kansas."

"Why did you move here?"

"I just wanted to experience the big city."

"You must like it here."

"Yeah it is a great place to live. Are you dating anyone?"

"No. I don't have the time to date." I looked around the table I blushed when I realized that Dave and Francisco were listening to us. "Will you excuse me? I will be right back." I stood up and walked towards the restroom.

"I'll come with you," Lisa said a she stood up and followed me.

We went into the restroom together. She leaned again the sink as I washed my hands. "Okay, tell me."

I looked at her. "Tell you what?"

"Are you and Francisco dating?"

"No!"

"I can see it in your eyes."

"I don't know what you are talking about, we can't date."

"Your eyes sparkle when you look at him."

"I just met you." I walked over and pulled a towel from the dispenser. "How do I know I can trust you?"

"Jessica. I have been through the same thing you are."

"You have?" I threw the towel into the trash and leaned against the wall.

"Yes. I worked at that clinic. That is where I met Dave and then we started dating."

"How can that be the same?"

"I worked for Dave and Francisco."

"Oh." I walked around the lounge area. "So, you had the same job as Katie?"

"Yes."

I looked at Lisa again. "That woman is such a bitch!"

"Is she?"

"I think she is jealous of me, but I don't know for sure."

"She used to date Francisco, I'm sure she is jealous."

"How long ago did you work there?"

"It's been about 3 months ago. I had to quit my job, because of my affair with Dave."

"Yes I think I am in love with him. I don't know if it is just an obsession. I want to be with him every second of the day."

"Then you two are lovers"

"Oh yes!" I sighed as I strolled around the room. "He is so incredible, I have never known anyone like him."

"Oh I know, I enjoyed working for both of them."

I leaned against the wall again. "I don't know how much longer I can work with him. I do have to stay until I finish with the patients he assigned me."

The door opened and two women came in. "Let's go back to the table, I'm sure our guys are wondering where we are."

"Yes I suppose we should."

I opened the door and we walked back to our table. Francisco and Dave looked up at us as we approached the table.

"What happened to you?"

I ran my hand across Francisco's back as I went passed him. "Just girl talk."

'Oh yeah?" Francisco looked at me as I sat down. "What about?"

"I don't have to tell you. Do I?" I grinned.

"No. I guess not." He winked at me as he grabbed my hand.

"Are you ready to go?" Dave asked as he got up from his chair.

We stood outside in the courtyard to the entrance of the restaurant.

"What are we going to do now?" Lisa asked.

"We could go see a movie?" Francisco suggested.

I looked at Francisco. "Why, the last one we went to we never did see?" I smiled.

"Yes I know." He laughed as he kissed my cheek.

"I know, we could go out to that fun center across town and play some games." Dave suggested.

I shook my head, no. "If you don't mind I would like to go home. I'm tired and it has been a long day."

Francisco put his arm around me. "Okay, if you are ready."

"Oh that's okay, maybe some other time." Dave said.

"It was great meeting you, Dave and Lisa."

"Same here," Dave said. "I will see at the clinic on Monday."

Lisa came over to me and handed me piece of paper. "Here is my phone number, if you want to talk. Okay?" She gave me a hug.

"Thanks. I really enjoyed talking to you."

We said our final goodbyes. Francisco and I walked back to his car. He opened my side as I got in and he went around to get in on his side. He looked at me. "Are you okay?"

"Where are you going on vacation?"

"I was waiting for that to come up." He reached over and took my hand. "Like I said in the restaurant, I can't leave. You are my responsibility."

"Will you take me home?"

"Am I taking you to your apartment or to my home?"

"Would you please take me to my apartment?"

As we drove I thought about everything that Lisa told me, hoping I can trust her with my feelings about Francisco. We arrived at my apartment. He came around and opened my door then walked me to my front door. "Can I see you this weekend?"

"No." I looked up at him with tears in my eyes.

"Is your roommate here?"

"I don't know."

"Let's go inside and find out."

I opened the door and went inside. He closed and locked the door behind him. I took my coat and handbag to my bedroom. I knocked on Julie's door, then opened the door and found her room empty. I went back into the living room. Francisco was sitting on the sofa so I sat down next to him. He pulled me into his arms. "I'm going to make you feel better." He softly said as he captured my mouth with a sensual kiss.

"Maybe we shouldn't do this." I said as he unzipped the back of my dress. "Julie could be home any minute."

"No she won't." He said as he nuzzled my neck.

"How do you know?"

"She left you a note, she will be gone all weekend."

"Oh." I sighed as our mouths met again. Then the phone rang.

"Are you going to answer that?"

"Yes let me up." I went over to the desk and answered. It was my mom. I sat down in my rocking chair and I talked to her for a few minutes, as I watched Francisco take off his clothes. I hung up the phone and when I came back he was stretched out on the sofa. I pulled my dress off and I lay down next to him.

"Who was that?"

"My mom. She wanted to know if I was still coming up to see them this weekend.

"And are you?"

"Yes I haven't been home for a few months."

"Does she know about me?" He asked as he kissed my forehead and then down my nose.

"My parents know about the doctor I am working with, but not the one lying here next to me."

"Why not?"

"They wouldn't understand."

"Let's go to your bedroom." He whispered as he kissed my neck and down to my stomach. He sat up and helped up from the sofa. I took his hand and let him to my bedroom. "I just thought it would be more comfortable in here." He pushed me onto the bed taking control of my body. The sex was incredible as always. We held each other not wanting to let go. He rolled over on his back as I laid my head on his chest.

"Are you feeling better?"

"Oh yes. I feel much better."

"That's good, because I know you were upset about something when we got here. Did Lisa say something to upset you?" He brushed the hair from my face.

"No." I ran my finger around his nipples and played with the hair on his chest. "She just told me she has been in the same situation that I am."

"What's that?"

I looked up at Francisco. "Did she have an affair with Dave while she was working with you?"

"Yes she did. Why?"

I laid my head back down on the pillow. "She told me this while we were in the restroom. I just wanted to know if it was true. I wasn't sure if I could trust her."

"I even dated her, but she only wanted Dave."

"I can't believe that." I smiled.

"She did."

"I don't know how much longer I can work with you."

"Why?" He rolled on his side.

"Because I think…"

"Tell me."

"I think…" I looked away from his eyes.

He touched my face. "Will you please tell me?"

"I'm in love with you." I bit my lip as my eyes filled with tears.

"Oh Jessica!" He wiped the tears from my eyes. "Why are you crying?"

"I don't know," I said as our mouths met with a deep passionate kiss. All of these emotions were racing around in my mind. I had to stop this so I gently pushed him away and broke the kiss. "Stop. Please stop." I can't believe I am doing this.

"What's wrong?" He looked concerned.

I touched his face. "Would you mind leaving?"

"What?"

"I need some time alone."

"Okay." He got out of bed. "If that is what you want."

"You're not mad?" I put on a robe and followed him into the living room.

"No. Should I be?" He put his clothes back on and then sat down to put on his boots. He then pulled me up into his arms and he gently kissed me. "I will miss you."

I walked him to the door. "I'll see you on Monday, okay?"

He opened the door and turned to face me. He squeezed my hand as he kissed my cheek and then kissed my lips again. "Yes, I will see you Monday." I watched him as he walked back to his car. He then looked back and smiled.