Uncontrolled Desire

By Denise

I drove to my apartment to change my clothes and then headed to the clinic. Thinking about what happened this morning, wondering if I could concentrate, on my job today. Maybe I should take him up on his offer. I would love to take care of him and to wake up next to him every morning. I sighed as I pulled into the driveway of the clinic. I parked around back and went in the side door. I went up the stairs and to his office. I saw Katie and another nurse coming towards me.

"Good Morning Miss Anderson."

"Good Morning Katie."

"Why are you here so early? Katie asked.

"Because my patient, Marcos, will be here at 10."

"Dr. Leal; isn't here yet." She stopped as the other nurse continued on down the hall.

"Yes I know. He gave me his key." I opened the door to go inside to the reception area.

"Oh yeah you do," she said as she came in with me.

"Are you dating him?"

I looked at her as she sat behind her desk. "No. Why?"

"Well yesterday when I caught you kissing, I was just wondering."

"We can't date."

"He could get into trouble if you are?"

"Yes I know."

"I want you to stay away from him." She warned as she pointed her finger at me.

"Why?"

"Because he is mine!"

"I don't think so," I said softly.

"What did you say?"

"Nothing, I didn't say anything," I snapped. "Besides you can't date him since you work for him, right."

"Yes. I'm not supposed to."

"And the only reason you want him is because I want him, is that right?" Then the door opened and Dr. Leal came in from the hall.

"Good morning! Miss Anderson and Katie," he smiled.

I bit my lip when I saw him. It was way too soon to see him again; I hoped I could be strong.

"Good morning, Dr. Leal," Katie said and then gave me an evil look. "Could I talk to you later?"

"Yes I will be free in about 11:30."

"Thanks," she said as went over to her filing cabinet.

Dr. Leal opened his office door and we went in. I sat down in my chair as he sat down behind his desk. 'How are you?"

"I don't know if I can do this." My hands were shaking, as I sat on them to hide them from Francisco.

"Why?" His eyes seemed to pierce right through me.

My body heat rose as I looked away from those eyes. I felt like I was going to pass out. "I'll be back in a minute."

I left the office and went to the restroom that was just two doors down. I washed my face to cool myself off. Why am I so nervous? There was a knock on the door and I slowly opened it.

"Are you all right?" He looked at me with concerned eyes.

"Yeah, I felt like I was going to pass out."

"Maybe we should go get something to eat, from the cafeteria."

"Yes maybe we should."

He grabbed the file for today and went out his backdoor and walked downstairs to the cafeteria. There was donuts, coffee and orange juice. So I picked a donut with chocolate icing and orange juice. "Feeling better?''

"Yeah I feel much better."

"Good!" He looked up at the clock on the wall. "We need to get going, our patient should be here.

So we walked down to the meeting room and saw Marcos waiting out side the door.

"How are you today Marcos?" I smiled as I approached him.

"Great!"

"Let's go in and sit down so we can get started." Dr. Leal said as he opened the door and allowed Marcos and myself to enter. He sat down on the sofa as I took one of the chairs. "You two talk and I will be right back." Dr. Leal said as he turned around and left the room.

"Do you need anything?" I asked.

"No, I am fine."

"Where did we leave off last week? I looked over the notes. "Oh here we are. You told me about your girlfriend who had died?

"Yes."

"Do you feel responsible?"

"Yes I do." He looked away from me.

"Why?"

"I should have been there to protect her."

"Why?"

"Well if I hadn't gone out of town she wouldn't have been raped." He looked at me again as he picked up the magazine that was on the table next to him.

"You can't always be there to protect her, can you?"

"I know."

"So what happened?"

"She set out for revenge on the boys who raped her."

"Did she kill them?"

"Yes." He said as he rolled the magazine up tightly.

"And then what happened?"

"I learned about it when I got home she left a message on my answering machine. She was crying, so what she said wasn't very clear. He stopped as he looked around the room and then continued. "I found out that she killed some police officers. I followed her trail and found her in a house holding this family hostage. The police surrounded the house and wouldn't let me talk to her and when they finally did it was too late she died in my arms." He put his hand over his eyes to hide his tears.

"I'm so sorry." I went over and sat next to him trying to console him. "Do you want to continue?"

He shook in head.

"What did she die from?"

"I know she lost a lot of blood from being raped. I found out that she did see a doctor but she never got treatment for it."

"I see." The door opened and Dr. Leal came into the room.

He looked up at him and then back at me. "Miss Anderson, I miss her so much."

"I understand." I touched him on the arm. "You can't take this too personally. You did all you could do to help her."

"Yes, I know."

Dr. Leal spoke up. "Your hour is up, will you come back next week?"

"Yes, I will be back."

"Good, take care of yourself," I said.

"Thanks." He tried to smile as he got up and went out the door.

"Are you okay?" Dr. Leal asked.

"Yes I am fine." I looked up at him. "Where did you go?"

"I just thought you do better without me being here."

"Yeah you are distracting," I grinned.

"Why don't you go home and get some rest, Antonio will be here around 3 p.m., okay."

"Okay." I got out of my chair and walked past him touching his face with my hand. "Let's go up stairs to your office."

We left the room and walked up the stairs together. Katie watched me as we went past her. I used my key to unlock the door then went in and closed the door. "What's wrong?" he asked.

"I just want you to hold me." He took me into his arms and held me, not wanting to let go. I looked up at Francisco, "Thanks I will see you later," as I backed away from him opened the door and left.

***

I arrived back at the clinic around 1:30, Katie wasn't at her desk so I knocked on the office door and there was no answer, so I unlocked the door with my key and went in. I sat down in his soft leather chair. I turned on the computer and played a game while I waited.

Then I heard the jingle of keys, so I got up to open the door thinking it was Francisco, but soon discovered it was Katie. We stared at each other in shock and then she asked… "What are you doing here?"

"Waiting for Dr. Leal."

"I see."

"Can I help you with something?"

"No." She turned her attention away from me as Dr. Leal and Dr. Owen came through the door, from the hall.

"Hello Dr. Owen," I said as they approached us.

"How are you, Jessica?"

"Fine." I looked at Dr. Owen and then to Dr. Leal.

"I have to go, see you later." Dr. Owen went down to his office.

"So what is going on here?" Dr. Leal asked.

"I just found Miss Anderson in your office," Katie said.

"Yes that is okay. Do you have a problem with that?" he asked.

"No I guess not." She folded her arms and leaned against the doorframe.

"Good."

Katy looked at me then at Dr. Leal. "Do you have any plans tonight?"

"Why?'

"Well it's my birthday and I was wondering if you would go out to dinner with me?"

"Is that what you wanted to talk to me about?" he asked.

"Yes."

"I'm sorry I forgot. I will have to get back to you, okay."

"All right." She turned around and left.

We went into the office and closed the door. "How long have you been here?"

"I got here around 1:30." I watched him as he sat down in his chair. "So, are you going to take here out tonight?" I sat down in my chair.

"Would you care if I did?

"Well…no." I bit my lip as our eyes met.

"Are you sure?"

"She told me to stay away from you."

"Are you going to listen to her?"

"No. She asked me this morning if we were dating."

"And what did you tell her?"

"I told her no."

"Well, if it's okay with you, I will take Katie out for her birthday."

"Why are you asking me?"

"I just don't want you to be mad if I took her out." He looked at his watch. "Shit! We have to go, we are late!"

We hurried down the stairs and found Antonio sitting outside the room. "I'm sorry we are late," Dr. Leal said as he approached Antonio.

He just smiled. "I'm glad to see your assistant again."

"Hello, Antonio, how are you doing?"

"Doing great!" Antonio said.

"Shall we go in and get started." Dr. Leal opened the door and he stopped me before I went in. "Do you want me to stay?"

"That's up to you." I walked in and sat down. I turned my attention to Francisco as he came in and sat down in the chair. I then returned my attention back to my patient as I looked through the file and was ready to begin. "So where did we leave off last week? Oh yes, you told me that you were accused of murder, is that correct?"

'Yes."

"Why don't you tell me about that?"

"Well it all started when I picked up this very rich woman. So a friend and I came up with a plan to steal money from her."

"Okay, continue."

"We made plans to kill her husband."

"So you admit to doing it?"

"No I didn't admit to anything. I do have an alibi."

"Okay, I believe you."

"I then found out I was being framed by these two bitches! I was arrested but I escaped."

"What were you going to do with this money?"

"I was planning to make a better life for my brother and myself."

"So why not get a job?"

"I have a job."

"I don't mean a gigolo! Maybe you should go to school and learn some skills so you could find a respectable job." I looked over at Dr. Leal. "I will be back in a minute." I left the room and walked down to the restroom. When I returned Antonio was gone. "Why did you let him go?"

"Because you were getting upset with him."

"Yes. I'm sorry."

"What is bothering you?"

"He just frustrates me?"

"Why?"

"He is young and charming. I bet he could get any woman he wants."

"Probably."

"He needs to learn if you want money you have to earn it."

"Some people don't understand that. Shall we go?"

"Yes."

We left the room and went back up to his office. I turned around to face him as he closed the door. "I am going to take Katie out for her birthday." He took me into his arms. "Why don't you go to my house and wait for me?" He gently kissed me. "I will be home shortly."

"Okay I will see you later." I opened the door and left.

***

I drove over to Francisco's house and went in to wait for him to come home from his date with Katie. I ordered a pizza and then sat on the sofa, ate my pizza and watched a movie.

The phone rang I didn't know if I should answer so I listened to the messages. A voice came on and said, "Francisco, I am in town. I was wondering if we could get together. Talk to you soon, Tina." Maybe this wasn't such a good idea to be listening to these messages.

I decided to go upstairs and a take long not bath to relax. My head was spinning thinking about Katie and this Tina. Are there other women, in his life, besides me? I got out of the tub went to lie down on the bed and fell asleep.

A shiver ran through my body as I woke up to someone lightly touching my body and then softly kissed my lips as I slowly opened my eyes. "Oh you are home." I reached up to touch his face. "Don't stop." I begged as he brought his mouth back to mine.

He then stood up and removed his clothes and lay down next to me. He wrapped his arms around me and captured my mouth as he rolled on top of me. "I need you!" He moaned as I surrendered myself to him as he took control of my mouth and body.

We held each other enjoying the afterglow of our lovemaking. "How was your date?"

"I don't know. I thought about you all evening."

"You did?"

"Yes I did." He brushed the hair from my face. "What did you do this evening?"

"I ordered some pizza and watched television." I sat up. "Who is Tina?"

"What?"

"The phone rang and someone named Tina left a message."

"Oh. I met her several months ago."

"Are there any others I should know about?"

"No." He then pulled me back into his arms. "Jessica, you are the only woman I want to be with, okay?" he said as our mouths were drawn together.