Uncontrolled Desire

By Denise

Wednesday afternoon I arrived at the clinic after a long morning at school. I didn't know how much longer I could keep this up, staying up late and getting up so early for school then coming here. I came in Katie looked up at me and smiled. "Good afternoon, Jessica."

"Good afternoon, Katie!" I responded as I walked by.

"I had such a wonderful time last night. Do you want to hear about it?"

I looked at her. "Are you talking to me?"

"Yes, I was," she smiled.

"You never talk to me."

"Oh I know. I just thought maybe we could be friends."

"Friends! You are the last person I want to be friends with."

"Why do you say that?"

"You are always staring at me and I don't know why."

"I'm sorry, I felt like you were a threat."

"Why am I a threat to you?"

"I thought you were after my man, but after last night, I don't feel threatened anymore."

"Oh yeah!" Then I looked over my shoulder as Dr. Leal came into the room.

"Good afternoon, Miss Anderson."

"Good Afternoon Dr. Leal." I looked at him and then at Katie. "Dr. Leal, can I see you in private?"

"Yes Miss Anderson, come into my office." He unlocked the door reached in to turn on the lights as I entered the room.

I turned around to face him as he closed the door. "What the hell did you do to her last night?"

"Who?"

"Katie."

"Why?" He asked as he went behind his desk.

"She wants to be friends with me." I sat down on the edge of the chair.

He looked up at me. "What is wrong with that?"

"She doesn't like me."

"Maybe she is changing." He finally sat down.

"Well, I think it was a mistake for you to take her out last night."

"Why?" He looked at me intently.

"She thinks you still want her."

"Oh." He got up went over to the filing cabinet and took out a file.

"She thought I was a threat."

"Are you a threat to her?"

"No, I don't think so."

"Did you kiss her?"

He returned to his chair as his eyes met mine. "I gave her a kiss, yes."

"She just told me that she had a wonderful time last night with you. So I was curious what you did to make her think you still want her."

"We went out to dinner, went dancing and then I drove her home."

"I thought you couldn't remember your date?"

"I had other things on my mind." He smiled and then continued. "I walked her to the front door gave her a goodnight kiss and then I left."

I got up from my chair and went over to the window. I couldn't believe I was feeling jealous of her. I had no reason to be; I leaned my head against the glass.

He came over to me and put his arms around my waist. "I came home to you, didn't I?" He kissed my neck.

"Yes I know. "I'm sorry." I turned around to face him and kissed his lips.

He pulled away from me. "We shouldn't do this here." He went back to his desk.

"I think I better leave, before I get you into trouble," I grinned.

"Will I see you tonight?"

"No." I opened the door and went home.

***

I finally made it home, after a long day. My head was aching from thinking about Francisco and Katie. I took a long hot bath, then put on my nightgown and spend the evening alone, in my room, in front of the television. I took some aspirin to help me sleep. The next thing I knew it was morning and heard a pounding on the door. "Come in." I said.

Julie peeked in and said. "Are you going to school?"

I looked over at the clock and it was a few minutes past nine. "Damn! Looks like I am staying home today."

"Okay I will see you later."

I got out of bed as soon as she left and got dressed. I wasn't planning on staying home, but it sounded like a brilliant idea. So I made my calls to school and to the clinic and said I wasn't coming in today. I went into the kitchen and made some breakfast, and then sat down on the sofa and that is where I was planning to stay for the rest of the day.

It was 10 a.m. when the phone rang, I didn't want to talk to anyone so I just let the answering machine lake the messages. I knew it was Francisco calling but I didn't want to talk to him, right now.

About an hour later, the doorbell rang. "Jessica, are you in there?" He then pounded on the door.

So I got up to answer, "What are you doing here?"

"I was worried about you. Are you okay?" he said as he came in.

"No I have a headache." I stared at him. "I didn't know I needed your fucking permission, to stay home."

"Relax! This is for you." He handed me a bouquet of red roses.

"Thank you." I kissed his cheek. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be crabby."

We stared at each other and then he asked. "Is your roommate here?"

No, she's at work," I answered as I put the roses on the coffee table as I sat down on the sofa.

"Okay, what's wrong?"

"Nothing. I just want to be alone."

He squatted down in front of me and looked up into my eyes. "You don't want to see me?"

"I don't know," I groaned as I laid my head back and closed my eyes.

"Why not?" He massaged my foot and my toes. He then kissed my leg and up to my knee.

"Stop!"

He stood up and sat next to me placing his hand on the inside of my thigh.

"No!" I closed my eyes as my body trembled from his touch.

He then gently kissed my lips as his hand went between my thighs. "You want me to stop?" he whispered as he nuzzled my neck.

"Yes!" I demanded as I opened my eyes and stared into those dark tempting eyes.

"I don't believe you." He rubbed my clitoris with his fingers until my body shuddered.

"Damn you!" Our mouths met with a kiss full of passion and desire.

He pulled away and asked, "Are you feeling better?"

"No," I smiled.

"Why don't you come home with me?"

"No, I want to stay here."

"I will make you feel better." He drew my mouth to his with a sensual kiss and then looked into my eyes. "Well…"

"Yes!" I sighed I was lost in his eyes. "I will go home with you."

"Good. Why don't you go change your clothes and then we will leave?"

So I quickly changed my clothes, grabbed my handbag, and I was finally ready to go. I opened the door and found Francisco leaning against the railing on the porch. I closed the door behind me and locked it. "I'm ready. Where are we going?"

"Well I thought we would go have some lunch and then go back to my house."

We walked down the stairs towards his car. He opened my side allowed me to get in, then went around and got in on his side. We drove downtown, parked the car and walked to an Italian Restaurant called Josephina's.

After lunch we took a walk, up to the 16th street mall. As we walked I could hear music playing as we approached one of the plazas. A jazz band was playing an outdoor concert; so we stopped to listen. He put his arm around my waist and held me close, nuzzling my neck and nibbling on my ears, driving me crazy. I looked up at him. "Let's go home." He held my hand as we walked back to the car and drove home. We made love the rest of the day and night.

***

When I woke the next morning I was alone. I found a note on the kitchen counter that said. "I'll be back later."

So I got dressed and decided to clean house, starting with the kitchen. I began cleaning out the refrigerator. Everything was moldy as I tossed things into the trash.

I started to clean the pantry when the doorbell rang. I went to see who it was. I peeked out and saw Katie standing there. I opened the door. "Well, hello Katie," I smiled.

"What are you doing here?" She looked shocked to see me.

"Cleaning."

"Cleaning what?

"Dr. Leal is paying me to clean his house."

"Oh."

"So, what are you doing here?"

"I just came by to give this gift to Francisco. Is he here?"

"No, he went out and I don't know when he will be back. Do you want to come in and wait?"

She came in. "Yes, thank you."

"Make yourself at home. I will be right back." I ran upstairs to the bedroom to page Francisco. When I returned, I found Katie sitting on the sofa. "How long have you known Francisco?" I asked as I sat down in the chair across from her.

"About 2 years. We met when he started his practice at the clinic," she said as she looked through the photo album that was sitting on the coffee table.

"Why did you break up with him?"

"He was still grieving about his wife and so I backed off to give him some space."

"That was thoughtful of you."

"Now I regret it." She finally looked up at me. "I will do whatever it takes to get him back."

Then the phone rang so I went into the kitchen to answer. "Hello."

"Jessica, why did you page me?"

"I just wanted to warn you that Katie was here."

"What does she want?"

"I don't know. Will you be home soon?"

"Yes."

"Please hurry." I hung up the phone. I turned around and Katie was behind me.

"Is he coming home?"

"Yes."

"Good." She sat down at the table.

I leaned against the counter. "Did you have a nice birthday?"

"Yes I did. Thanks for asking."

"What did you do?"

"Oh we went out to dinner and then dancing."

"Anything else?"

"No he told me had and early appointment the next morning so he had to leave early. Which I thought was kind of odd since I knew he didn't have any patients coming in."

"Maybe it was something outside the clinic."

"Yes that is true. Anyway, he did kiss me goodnight." She closed her eyes and smiled. "He is such a great kisser!"

"Oh yes! I know," I sighed softly.

"I'm sure we will go out again soon." She stared at me. "What did you mean by that?"

"I don't know what you are talking about."

'You guys are dating, aren't you?"

"No. I told you before we are not dating!"

"He went to see you that night didn't he?"

"So what if he did?"

She stood up to face me. "I told you before to stay away from him you little bitch!" she yelled as he turned away and walked back into the living room.

"Don't you be calling me a bitch!" I followed her. "He doesn't want to be with you."

She turned around. "I think I better leave."

"Good! Maybe you should." I picked up the present that was sitting on the table. "Here take your fucking present with you."

"Don't talk to me like that!" She glared at me. "You sure get upset for someone who isn't dating."

"I told you, for the last time we're not dating!"

"All right!"

I stared at her as I heard the back door open. "I think he's home."

Katie and I were standing in front of the door, when he came into the living room. "Katie what are you doing here?"

"I brought you a present."

"What for?" He stared at her and then at me.

"I just wanted to thank you for taking me out for my birthday," she said with a smile.

"You didn't have to do that."

"I know," she said as she gave it to him.

"Thanks." He sat it on the table. "What have you two been talking about?"

"You," I smiled.

"I just found out that you two are dating," Katie said.

"You did?" He looked at me then back to Katie.

"I didn't say that." I spoke up to defend myself. "Katie, why are you trying to start something with me?"

She gave me an evil smile. "I think it is time for me to leave."

Francisco opened the door for Katie. "Have a good evening Katie, see you on Monday." Katie walked out the door as Francisco slammed the door then turned to me. "So what the hell did you tell her?" He came towards me and backed me against the wall.

"I didn't tell her anything," I replied. "She is assuming things."

"Okay, tell me what happened?"

"We were talking about you and then I asked her about her birthday. She told me that she had a wonderful night, with you." I stopped for a moment, trying to remember everything.

"Okay, continue."

"She made a comment about how well you kiss and I let out a sigh. She then stood up and called me a bitch. She then told me to stay away from you. She figured out that you went home to me."

He turned away from me went over to the sofa and sat down. "Damn it!"

"I'm sorry." I walked over to him and sat down next to him.

He covered his eyes with his hand. "If she says anything, even it were true or not, I could be fired."

"I'm sorry."

"It's not your fault. She shouldn't be assuming things." He looked at me and pulled me into his arms.

I laid my head on his shoulder. "Where were you today? I don't like waking up alone."

"I had some things to do."

"Like what?"

"It's a surprise." He gently kissed me.

"Oh."

"What did you do today?"

"I cleaned out your refrigerator and started to clean out the pantry, but I was rudely interrupted."

"Would you mind leaving? I want to be alone."

I looked up at him. "I can't leave."

"Oh, yeah, I have to take you home."

"Yes." I kissed his lips.

He touched my face. "Go get your things and I will drive you home."

We arrived at my apartment. "Do you want to come in?"

"No." He leaned over and gently kissed me. "I will see you Monday."

"I have to spend another weekend without you?" I pouted.

"Yes, it has to be this way." His lips were on mine again. He paused and looked deeply into my eyes. "Jessica, I love you." Then our mouths met again. I pulled him closer to me as our tongues played together.

"I want you!" I unzipped his pants. I stuck my hand inside and found his cock in need of attention.

"No. Stop!"

"Why?"

"Please go."

"Okay." I got out of the car and slowly walked up to my apartment. I turned around as he drove away.